The thing is, I'm not ashamed - that's the one thing I want to say. I don't think it's wrong, I'm not devastated going through this. I'm more liberated and happy than I've been my whole life. I was not raised in a Christian church to hate people. I was taught to love people and accept people. I'm at peace with my family, my friends, myself and God, so there's really nothing else that I worry about.